my girl

I love the movie MY GIRL ....and one of my fave parts... :

THOMAS J: What do you think it's like?
VADA: What?
THOMAS J: Heaven.
VADA: I think, everybody gets their own white horse, and all they do is ride and eat marshmallows all day, and everybody's best friends with everybody else, when you play sports, there's no teams, so nobody gets picked last.
THOMAS J: But, what if you're afraid to ride horses?
VADA: It doesn't matter, 'cause they're not regular horses, they got wings, and its no big deal if you fall, you just land in the clouds.

....i kind of want to be a kid again not that im already old but...because when you're a kid, nothing is boring, because everything you see is so great, because its new, you're so curious about it, and you get to explore a lot of things.you get to enjoy life! life is so simple...and you don't really worry about other things only when you fall off a bike or get hurt and its so easy to heal the pain when you're a kid. like you'll forgive someone because they said sorry or give you a lollipop just so you wont feel bad about the scratches or wounds on your body. but when we become old... life becomes more complicated. relationships with family tend to build a bigger gap. kids rebel. parents cant trust their kids. we cant understand each other. we hold our grudges for a long long time because we're too proud or too ashamed or too scared to admit our mistakes... isnt it funny that kids are too eager to grow up while the adults want to be young again? ....it also made me think about the things talked about in my philosophy class. ...i guess im scared to die.. i dont know why, i guess im not ready. i just cant imagine myself inside a coffin and being stared at during a wake or something...or even burn myself to ashes...haay, what am i thinking? this is weird...